The Pattern Has been established
Well another night that I am not allowed to call my mother from my home because they have shut down my cell phones. The phones are like computers and have their own digital identification. The idea is that if I can't get to my mother I will blow up and if only I would finally blow up they could get me if only I would finally threaten someone.
They have been waiting for that when I used to displace my anger over what the corrupt were doing onto the ever smiling Ken Starr, oh yeah, it has been going on that long.
Let's go over what I did. I read from an ethics book on Ethics and Legal Issues in the Helping Profession because his abuse was unethical. I was taking the class at Marquette and it was painful that I was reading what he did to me. So I read from it on his answering machine.
Poor him, he says, "I have trouble with women." Yeah, he gives mixed messages to them, uses them up to listen to him, and then resents them.
His pattern is established of trying to get people whom I like or respect.
He went to my oldest brother. The reason? I never had a negative thing to say about my oldest brother and I sent him my poems.
The great novice master (and don't you appreciate the sexual connotations of being a novice master) well I told him, "I don't like you."
He blew up, "I don't need you to like me."
Yet, he wouldn't let me go and he still won't. He has access to my private life the way many of you do.
By the way, I am not a hoarder at all. I am not into things. I simply go into that place and shut down though I have been organizing it. And it's great to see that they still go in there.
I leave them traps and they always bite the bait.
I don't bite theirs.
This has been going on since 1996, I exposed the scandal after trying to stop it internally at the end of July 1995.
My brother who was asked to go to M.I.T listened to the tapes, oh I learned to tape after the great novice master tried to destroy me. And my brother said, "Terri, you have them by the balls."
mmmmmm now isn't that a patriarchal pain.
My brother said, "I can't believe my sister pulled this off."
So it is not about stalking. It's about his revenge that I don't like him and their revenge that I have them on tape regarding homophobia. Do you know Roach had fellow Jesuits telling a jilted lover who blamed Roach for the break up which car Roach had signed out for later in the day or the weekend?
Jeez they can't even get me for extortion because I don't want any of their money.
Imagine that, they are just for my protection nothing more.
So the great Novice Master called my therapist and she said to him, "Did you ever think that maybe you are the one with the problem, Father?"
Oh, but he oh so delights in my writing here because he gets to be sad and he is now the special martyr that his mother wanted him to be when she read him about the saints when he was a little boy.
But his brother, well he seems to be the real deal.
The great novice master said after he went to Florida to see his brother after his brother's heart attack that the brother was a failure. The great novice master stayed with the brother's ex wife because she insisted. And well he slept in the niece's room while his mother slept in the fold out couch. He has no clear boundaries. His mother was not happy being with the woman who divorced her son and he has no loyalty to anyone but how he looks to outsiders.
So, he came back to report to me that the brother did not have a good job. He said, It's not a good job, he's a golf pro.
He wanted his brother to be a sports writer. He said, "I have read things in the sports section and thought this is crap, he could do so much better."
And listen to this, the Uncle was a retired board chairman of the newspaper in Milwaukee so the "failure" of the younger brother could have gotten a position easily in the newspaper business.
And also those of you outside of Catholic Culture do not know that if you are the niece or nephew of a Jesuit you get to go to Jesuit Universities for free.
And none of the younger brother's kids went to a Jesuit University for free.,
They have ROTC, one of the kids likes to kill people for the government and corporations wanting to make money.
Do I seem angry?
I think he is disgusting.
Now, to continue his pattern they are focused on people in my building.
You see, it would kill the great novice master that I found a Helga Project in Ghost.
Just as he went to my brother (who in the end told one of my brother's) "Terri's a success because no matter now many setbacks she has; she always strives to understand herself."
I finally told my mom that he went to my brother a few years back and she said, "Nobody controls what Tom thinks."
Sp now because I Found life inside of my writing focusing on the way this man lived his life you want to get him too.
You know, they are on the people in my building. They know they didn't indicate or tell me anything but it is there way of keeping me isolated.
That's the great Jesuit game when it comes to me.
You see, Ghost is his opposite. He has long honey hair, and a masculine mustache that looks like a forest of many colors and he has this masculinity and his hands have been shaped by the earth because he gardens. And he went to Mexico to teach women how to make honey.
He doesn't live a hierarchy with animals. He is a vegan.
I found this on my research of him and watching him.
He is a tree protector. I found that out by looking at box that came to his mail last week, it was in the hall way and it said it was for tree protection.
I read in his book that he receives chestnut trees to plant.
I believe my dad put him there so I would have a muse.
He took over my writing. For the first time I saw that hair could be a halo because the light follows him.
He would never tell his mother, "Mother if you don't clean this up I am not visiting any more."
I remember telling my mother that the great novice master told his mother that back in the 90's and she sneered the same sneer she did the other night when I told her that Pope Francis said that Europe was barren like an old grandmother.
You harass the people in my building with your stalking. They don't tell me, you do.
You have told me things for years hoping I would finally blow.
It's not going to happen.
I will now go to bed at 7 or 8 at night when I get there and I will get rid of cable.
But about his younger brother?
Well, he seems to see right through crap; he didn't use the connection with the powerful uncle to be a sports writer and he didn't have his kids take a free Jesuit education. (it's on facebook) I never look on their facebook.
I looked once. Said it from my condo and that's how I found out the great novice master has access to my privacy too.
You are sick. Really sick.
And I am free.
I told you in Berkely, "You will not destroy me" And you won't.
Oh about his powerful uncle, the great novice master was so happy that his powerful uncle showed for the Baccalaureate Mass in 1983. It was the nephew's last mass before he went off to be the great novice master and well, the uncle was a protestant.
So the great novice master wrote his mother's obituary and name dropped the uncle's family saying how she so enjoyed them.
That was so all those in the status world would know he was from good blood.
You see, his dad had to be a commercial artist because with a family how can one be an artist. And there was shame that they had no money.
He's up in the Jesuits because he is a dick boy not because he has money.
I am his manufactured martyrdom. He created me, abusing me, I would rebel and he knew I would and it allowed him to have his martyrdom that he so wanted at his mother's knee.
God, I do believe Ted Tyson would say, "Her writing is just so good, I couldn't quit reading them."
That's what he told my brother.
I offered you peace in 1996 before you came after me. I wrote the Jesuits and said, "I am sorry for my part and I am sure you are sorry for yours."
You want to destroy me.
And the fact that you are keeping me from my mother via the phone shows how evil you are.
But hey going after the people in my building, oh yeah we have new FBI people where I live, they decided that they needed to stage a Christmas scene and then 11's banana boy purposely let me know last week and then of course we have Jerry Garcia want to be.
This is your legacy
Your brother has a soul and can clearly see through crap.
You are a name dropper out of your sense of shame.
You are the worst thing that ever happened to my life.
Oh and my lawyer told me in Miwlaukee, I have had many cases against Marquette University and they will do anything to try to win a case.
My psychiatrist at the time said, "I have seen them destroy professionals lives."
Hahaha, you can't destroy a poet's life !~